In previous posts on this blog, I have mentioned my many fears–clowns, zombies, evil children, thunderstorms, rodents, reptiles, arachnids, bugs, and the dark, just to name a few. I haven’t however, mentioned my greatest fear, the one that really keeps me up at night and leaves me depressed during my waking hours. It’s deeply personal, and I’m pretty sure only my mom knows that I have this fear. It’s the fear of being forgotten. The thought of no one remembering my existence is shattering. (I’m pretty sure this all started in the eighth grade. My science teacher was handing out papers or something, and he came to one with my name on it. He had no idea who I was…and school was about to get out for the summer.) Anyway, this fear took center stage when I read my latest book, A Need So Beautiful, by Suzanne Young. The protagonist, Charlotte, is forced to face her own destiny, one where she loses everyone she loves and is completely erased from their memories. She will be forgotten…
Ever since she can remember, Charlotte has felt the Need, an uncontrollable urge to help people in need. She cannot control when or where the Need will hit, but she feels intense pain until she helps those who call to her. At first, the Need would hit her every month or so. Then, it became every week. Now, though, the Need plagues her one or more times per day.
Charlotte doesn’t know what’s happening to her, or even what she really is, but the Need is quickly destroying her. It’s wrecking her relationships–with her boyfriend, her best friend, and her adoptive family. She wishes she could ignore the Need, but the pain is just too much to handle. She must help those who need her, even if it means losing parts of herself. But when things begin to get even worse–like her body emitting a golden glow and people around her forgetting who she is–Charlotte seeks answers. First of all, who and what is she? Why does the Need compel her to help people she doesn’t even know? And can she change her destiny before everyone in the world forgets she ever existed?
Charlotte’s search for the truth leads her to something she never expected. She is one of the Forgotten, sort of an angel sent to earth to help those in need. When she helps people, she is instantly forgotten. And every time she helps someone, she draws closer and closer to the end of her own life. She will wear out until she is nothing but light, and her entire being will be erased from the memories of those she encountered. But there might be a way out. There may be a way to keep her life, her plans, her boyfriend, and her family. Is Charlotte willing to do anything to be remembered? And what is the price she will have to pay to make it happen? Will she be able to pay it? Read A Need So Beautiful by Suzanne Young to find out.
A Need So Beautiful is a breathtaking book, and, if you’re anything like me, it will leave you thinking long after you’ve finished reading. It made me think about what it would really be like if no one remembered me. (It would suck, by the way.) But it also made me consider that there might be worse things than being forgotten. Would I be willing to sacrifice my own desire to be remembered for the greater good? Would you?
FYI, this book has a couple of adult situations, mostly involving sex, so I would recommend it for ages 16 and up.
If you’d like more information about this book or others by Suzanne Young, visit http://suzanne-young.blogspot.com/.